Walking away from a toxic relationship was one of the best decision that I have made, but it wasn’t the hardest.
The hardest decision that I made was leaving my son for close to a year while I find and pave my way to independence. The near 24-hour flight on October 16, 2012 was one of the longest flight that I ever took, not just because of the time – but because I didn’t even wake up Sky at that time to say goodbye. It wasn’t because I was being mean. It was just so hard.
It was hard to be by myself again after years of being with my son and my family, who has been with me through thick and thin… And who have supported me all the way to help me get where I am now.
Like many of other parents who had to leave their children in The Philippines while they work abroad – every day was a struggle for me. Adjusting to work here, adhering with the rules and making sure my documentation was decent – was nerve wracking, but I got through it.
The time that Sky and I were not together, gave me a chance to grow and find myself again. I learned to get to know myself again and let my real me blossom from the cocoon that I was stuck in for so long. I found my voice and I found my spunk, and I was able to lug a 50-inch television up in my apartment by myself – on the 3rd floor. 😀
Thank God for Facetime! Seeing my son regularly – even if it was not in the flesh – was a lifesaver. My sister and my mama who took him under their wings when I was gone told me that in those times that I wasn’t there – he was so angry and was so short tempered.
I couldn’t blame him. He must have felt abandoned. Leaving Sky then was the hardest choice that I had to make, but it was the best one. Having the courage to get out of our comfort zone and face what we though we fear most – actually brings us where we are supposed to be in the first place.
Life has been awesome around my side of the world. Until my next post. Will keep you all updated! 🙂