The past 2-3 weeks was one of those times that I just felt soooo homesick. It has been a year from around this month when my whole family was here and we were out and about in Vancouver, Canada. I had this gaping feeling in my gut, where I felt like my insides was empty. I am thankful for my work, as it kept my mind and body busy to focus our patients in the community.
What was tough were the times that I find time to be by myself. My heart was aching for my first home a tad bit too much. I would rummage through the internet and my friends on Facebook, who are based in The Philippines. I cannot help but feel a twinge of envy and longing for a cup of taho, a stick of fishball or isaw, a hug from mama and papa, the smog that has the unique smell of Manila and hearing the bustling city traffic.
At the same time, I am more than happy with my life in my second home – where traffic is easy, the air is always fresh, living with my son and being with my soulmate.
But, I tell you… You can take this Filipina out of The Philippines, but you can never take The Philippines from her.
I find myself subscribing to Direct TV Filipino International and cooking at least one Filipino dinner a week and just diving into anything Filipino online as well.
Listening and watching Umagang kay Ganda, TV Patrol, 24 oras and even eat Bulaga early in the morning, during my lunch hour and while I cook dinner at night – has been very soothing for me. I know it sounds crazy, but I am transported back to my Manila everytime. Pair the voice of Noli De Castro talking in the background while I take in the aroma of Adobo, Sinigang or Tuyo on the frying pan makes my insides feel like a giddy kid everytime.
And the best way to really bring my heart back home – is when I Facetime with my parents and family back home. We can talk about the most mundane things, even repeat our conversations over and over – but I never get tired of it. They are afterall helped me find and establish my second home.
I am looking forward to visit my first home, The Philippines at the end of this year.
And I will have rush to find some barya and a big glass as soon as I hear manong belt out “Tahhooooo, kayo diyan…” every single morning! 🙂