It means it is “officially” Christmas in The Philippines.
Summer is over.
School has started.
My husband just turned 50.
And life goes on.
My husband’s brother passed away tragically a month ago. Every morning we still wake up and can’t believe that he is gone. And with a loss – kind of hit me with regrets.
I wish we did more as a family on my husband’s side. I wish we had family dinners more often. I wish we all went camping. I wish we travelled too…
At the same time, his passing made us think for being prepared. Just in case one of us or even both of us pass on suddenly. We need to have things in place for our kids… Especially for Schyler, since he is very young. (Sidenote: Tony has Justin, Hunter and Deyd from his previous marriages – and I now consider them my kids too. I will always be there for them when they need me.)
Having a living will and setting up a trust fund will be one of our priorities before September ends. It sounds morbid, I know – but it is just something we have to do.
Admittedly, the silence from blogging was not from the sadness of what August brought in. Life at 40 is far different from your 30’s and 20’s. There is happiness and a sense of contentment with working the daily gring, getting home at a decent time, having the pep to clean and organize the house, spending really quality time with my husband and our son. I also went on a bachelorette 5 day weekend for Shira at Scottsdale, Arizona in June and actually was able to hold my ground with a a group of strong Millenial women. And then Tony and I spent a weekend with good friends in Vegas – and won in the slot machines, danced the night away, watched Michael Jackson Cirque de Soleil show and got really hammered. Another weekend in July was spent at a good friend’s lakehouse in Lake Loon, WA of doing absolutely nothing, seeing James Taylor live in Spokane and getting soaked on a speed boat too :). And then went away with my girlfriends for our annual mom and kids camping weekend in Montana.
All in all, our summer has been happily busy… Until August came around… The only saving grace in all of this is we know that Kenny is now up in heaven where he truly belongs.
And the regrets now, will be plan of actions that we need to follow through this coming days.
Spending more time with family.