Today, I turn 41.
Yes, Happy Birthday to me! I can see wrinkles making permanent residence on my forehead and some around my eyes. And now, I do have to regularly have my hair colored to cover up the strands of whites and greys on the top of my crowing glory.
I can look at it either two ways:
- Holy crap, I am 10 years away from being a half a century old, or…
- I have 30 to 40+ years to live and enjoy my life…
It is quite obvious that I am choosing number 2! However, if you asked me 10 years ago, when I was 31 and had just gave birth to Schyler in a very unhappy marriage. I would have told you these:
- I am not ever going to be a good mom.
- I am always tired and exhausted.
- My (ex) husband tells me I am stupid. I am never going to be better.
- I guess, this is just how my life is.
It is interesting how time, experience and aging makes you a totally different person in a matter of a few years. Sometimes, when I look at my “On This Day” memory on my Facebook, especially the one that I posted 5-7 years back – I almost always post about me being sick or not feeling well. And it just absolutely makes me cringe and not cringe at the same time.
My perspective in life was so different back then. I though that all the sh*t that I was going through was because I was sh*tty and that I did not deserve to be happy.
I always saw my cup half empty and never half full.
But, you know what? The mind is very powerful. When you THINK and ACT on it IT WILL COME.
I remember crying in Baclaran church, praying and willing to pass the NPTE… When I did practice exams for it, I always willed my mind and thought to myself that I was already a Physical Therapist in the US… And used my clinical judgement every time. And then, I passed it the second time around.
How to THINK is a game changer for me in life right now. Much like today. It’s my birthday, and we are having some plumbing/water problems at home. I can either:
We need to get a Plumber in now! Oh my, this will cost an arm and a leg for sure.
I am sure we can get the plumber later and have it all sorted out. Sure am glad that Tony and I have good jobs to help us pay for it.
So, the next time you think you hit a wall of some sort. It is just a way of God and the Universe telling you that…
…You can handle this easy.
…This is going to make you better.
…I just wanted to get you out of something worse than this.
Life lessons and experiences is all about what PERSPECTIVE you CHOOSE to THINK of.
Have a great Sunday everyone! ❤️